Thursday, January 04, 2007

Pausing to reflect

I'm reflecting on how very different this Situation is from the one we expected. I feel grateful, sad, and overjoyed all at once. Hella scared, too. I guess that's a good thing.

I've been knitting like a fiend, too. We're making a scarf for each member of the baby's family from the same yarn we used for a hat for the baby, and all of these things need to be done by the baby's due date. Right now I'm working on the scarf for her father; the scarf for her mom is done. I hope there's enough time to work up a scarf for her brother, too.

I think about the baby's family all the time. I hope and pray we're doing right by them. It's really scary because the stakes are so high and there's little room for error. It's hard, too, because we'd expected such a different relationship with our baby's first family if we'd ended up with a DSS Situation. Things are even more complicated because of this baby's family's particular situation. I wish I could say more about it because I'd really like some feedback. Does anyone know of a more anonymous place (more anonymous than blogville, anyway) where adoption triad members can ask questions and talk with one another? I would really welcome that information.

You know what's funny? I'm being surprisingly even-keeled (for me) about all of this. I feel pretty proud of myself--I think I'm keeping things in perspective, not being overly dramatic, and not letting my emotions get the best of me. I haven't cried or carried on (though I've come close), and Petunia and I are taking good care of each other. All bets are off once the baby's born, but right now I'm doing okay.



Blogger Erin said...

toddler on lap, so this will be brief...

i highly recommend's forum 'discussions across the adoptive plane' (or something) for awesome feedback. the whole forum, really.

you are ALL in my thoughts,, xo

3:58 PM  
Blogger Clementine said...

Hey Erin, thanks for that link. I'm going to ask some more specific questions there. I appreciate your help!

6:18 PM  
Blogger frog said...

Hey, clementine, you should pose your question to Dawn at This Woman's Work, if you've not done so already. I suspect she'll have some suggestions.

10:56 PM  
Blogger Mama2BandT said...

any update on if the birthmom's gone into labor and how things are going? hope all is well for you and yours

1:46 PM  

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