Thursday, March 15, 2007

This morning kinda sucked

I made it through by the skin of my teeth.

The Good

--I did not have my state licensing visit this morning. It sounds like it'll be this afternoon or tomorrow, unless Mr. Licensor runs late and goes into next week.

The Bad

--Early Intervention came for Hester at 8:45am. Their assessment was much scarier than I thought it would be--it was extremely thorough and took place just after Hester woke up from a nap. Pretty much the minute her eyes popped open, the visitors were shaking rattles in her face. I felt really defensive of Hester, though I tried not to let it show.

The Good

Hester did great on most of the EI tests. She even scored expressive language in the 5-month old range. What can I say--the kid's a talker! Her birth parents are big talkers and so are her adoptive parents, so that makes sense to me.

The Bad

On the other hand, Hester scored in the 1-month range for gross motor development. We learned some new tricks to help her get stronger, like holding down her bum during tummy time so she has to work harder to life her head. Poor kid! Now we're her personal trainers as well as her mommies! I'm kind of amused that her delay is in gross motor, though, since neither Petunia nor I is much of an athlete. We're more of a book-reading, knitting, strolling around the town kind of family. Hester fits right in!

The Good

EI's going to come once a month for Hester during the year to come. As she gets closer to 12 months, they'll do another complete developmental assessment and let us know if she qualifies for another year of services.

The Bad

While they were here, I talked with the developmntal specialists about my concerns for another child in my care. Tonight I'll be talking with his mom about EI services. That's not going to be a fun conversation.

The Good

It's Thursday. Just one more day to go before the weekend.

Seriously y'all, tell me it gets easier to work when you have a small child. I know this is only my first week back at work since Hester came home, but there are moments when I just don't think I can do it anymore. The other kids' whining gets on my nerves in a way it didn't before she came home, and I have much less patience with them overall. I'm not nasty or mean or yelling or any of those things, but I'm frustrated and angry and resentful internally. I'm also physically exhausted. I'm hopeful that we'll make our way in time, but right now it's damned hard. And Petunia's home, too! I don't know what I'll do when she goes back to work.

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8 Comments:

Anonymous Jenny PP said...

Oh you can do it and it will get better. You're stressed right now trying to integrate everything and your Mama-ness is on high alert having Hester with you and that still being new. You'll get more used to it and have more patience with the other kids again.

Good job with your evaluation Hester! I guess her auntie JPP will have to help her develop her motor skills since I am such an EXCELLENT ATHLETE. Ha ha ha.

1:46 PM  
Blogger Clementine said...

What? You played ultimate frisbee in college! You're an awesome athlete!

2:09 PM  
Anonymous Jenny PP said...

Exactly. Word.

4:02 PM  
Blogger Process said...

I think you are off to a great start and everything will get easier. You are going to be really good moms! You were so dedicated to being with Hester when she was in the hospital--I was so impressed with all that driving and being there and everything you did! And you got through today!

Hester looks adorable and alert and happy and well cared for in every photo. As she gets older, she will love having the other kids around and it will be easier to integrate her with them. The only thing is, I don't know how you do it with the space you have.

I would love to see more photos! Keep up the good work!

5:29 PM  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

You will surive and Hester will be better for it!!! Super mom!
As a yoga teacher who specialized in Children, I must share that it is never too early to start Hester with some yoga exercises (guided by you of course). If you would like some resources like webs and book names, let me know.
:)Lola

8:46 PM  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

p.s. from lola
specializes not specialized as in i do it now!
:)L
Canada can vouch for me:)
btw, anonymous is the only way i am able to leave a comment-must be something with my 'bad apple' tonight (i use a mac and somedays that is NOT good)

8:48 PM  
Blogger Canada said...

Canada will vouch for Lola any day, esp when Lola brings Venti Caramel Macchiato caffeine fixes on a March Break morning.

Clementine, I'm glad things are mostly going well - at least you're getting through stuff. The good, the bad, and the ugly - the joys of being a parent say you'll see e'm all!

12:10 AM  
Blogger Amelia's Mom said...

The transition takes a while, but it DOES get easier. I promise!

12:38 AM  

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